Tuesday, August 4, 2020

Finding Peace in Effort

When I look for ways to improve myself, I look for a single change in habit or routine that improves multiple areas of my life.  My best example is the ongoing struggle with alcohol consumption. By cutting out this one habit it would improve energy, health, finances, etc.  I say "ongoing" because there are social and mental benefits to having a drink so I've never successfully quit drinking. 

During the pandemic we were facing the cancellation of our annual visit up north to Michigan and I was burning out at work. I wanted to still take a week off but could not bare the idea of sitting at home.  'Rona ultimately was the deciding factor of the cancellation, but family drama in Michigan and a rough patch at home took all the wind out of my sails and I had no energy to push on.

Focusing in on the rough patch, this was due to the prolonged work from home situation in a 1,500 sq ft house with three kids and my wife and I both working a side gig.  To fix this I needed space.  I had time, I needed a distraction and I had to get out from behind my computer. 
So I bought plans to build a backyard office and set to work.  There are two tales here that I'll summarize in two paragraphs below. 


Anxiety of Overcommitment
I underestimated the time, materials and money it takes to build a small 10'x10' office in the yard. The plan to build a space to ease my work from home and provide refuge has added to my ever-growing list of overcommitments.  I have one more thing to badger me as I hit snooze...one more thing to avoid in the evening with beer and Netflix.  I'm too far into the project to turn back, but each day I spend building is time away from the family and it's creating more of an issue than sharing a small house to raise a family and work.  My only recourse is to angrily power through and get this off my plate so I can focus on more meaningful things.  Peace in Effort

Finding Peace in Effort
I underestimated the time, materials and money it takes to build a small 10'x10' office in the yard.  It started with prepping the ground, then building the floor/base, then framing the walls, then building the trusses, then raising the frame, then raising the trusses, roofing, doors/windows, siding and deck.  I list all of these items because, for a first timer, each takes research and trial and error.  What I thought I could accomplish in a week, is now on week 4.  However, I reset my timing expectation and thought each section through allowing myself to customize as I see fit.  I have a grand vision and each night I get a step closer to realizing that vision.  I've learned an immense amount of information about construction...all the nuance is understood and I'm proud of each step.

I chose the latter path and by redefining my expectation of time, the project has been able to breathe, allowing for modifications and enhancements.  I'm truly proud of the vision I have for this space and slowly moving towards realizing it.  I can't wait for move-in day.